The guilt I got when losing you
was guilt I had from already losing me
What was lost long ago
creeps up and always takes control
I didn’t want to push you away
but it’s what always happens
when I am happy and free
something takes control of me
It’s wasn’t your fault
and “it’s not you” it’s me
My life was better with you
but unbearable because of me.
I knew this would happen
I just didn’t know when
I wish it would stop
and we could start over again
The guilt I have from losing you
is guilt I have from losing me
What was lost long ago
crept up and took another soul.
Amber RR
