But too many decisions
And no time to decide
What to do with them
Is building up inside
So I sit here in trouble
And worries filtered above
How do I maintain the guilt
From all the love
With a conscious
And a controlled thought
The toughest thing of all
Is the should and should not
The consequence
From the enduring pain
All wrapped inside
And then left out to drain
If I proceed
Will I decide to quit
Forget everything
And turn around and split
Will I eventually find
What it is that I’m looking for
Will it happen tomorrow
And when will she walk through my door
But how will I know
Just who to choose
I feel this way for both
But neither do I want to lose
Does it make me guilty
Does it make me weak
Because the only thing I really want
Is someone by my side every week
I don’t know
Nor can I even tell
Sometimes I think about heaven
But mostly about hell
Because where do I end up
If I choose the wrong way
Does it just simply turn out
The way I want it to someday
I want the answers
Because I cant settle without
The misery and mystery
That I must find in doubt
Where else can I find
How far I must go
To find the right thoughts
That I need to know
Should I tell them
Or should I overlook the time
Wait for another day
And wait for another find
But how can I do that
How can I just walk away
From the thoughts inside
That I ponder everyday
One should know
And one should be told
That the last thought I had
Was how can I be so bold
To just pick up and leave
Without saying why
Like the life I normally live
Without saying goodbye
But its something I must do
And learn to deal with
The decision to walk away
And let our friendship become a myth
Because if I proceed
Something bad will happen
Just like it always does
Because one won’t be laughing
So is it wise to advance
And let my feelings overcome me
Or should I leave
And wonder what it could be
I just don’t know
Nor can I cope with the stress
Maybe I should give up now
Before this becomes a bigger mess